This practice is one I may need to try many times in order to reap the benefits of a subtle mind. During the first few moments when I was prompted to be aware of my breathing, I am pretty sure I got it! It was not until the instructor broke in after my 10th breath that I became startled. As much as I tried to get my concentration back, I became more focused on my surroundings. I heard the cars pass by my house. My daughter came home between classes with a friend and turned on the television. I became very aware of my dog, who was sitting beneath my desk from the start, and finally I focused on my husband who was in the next room the whole time doing some work on his computer.
The great thing about this exercise is that for those first ten breaths I was able to witness my own subtle mind (and fall in love with it). I have uploaded this exercise to my I-Phone in order to continue this practice. To be able to bring myself to this calm place would allow me to find peace in stressful situations as well as to send myself on a mini-vacation without even leaving the room.
When I compare this to the Loving-Kindness audio, it is easy to see how I am able to grasp the concept of Loving-Kindness much more easily that Subtle Mind. With the Loving-Kindness audio, the format was geared towards others. With the Subtle Mind, I found it was more about me. As I mentioned previously; it is much easier for me to give than receive. But, I am ready to learn!
“For it is not enough to talk about peace. One must believe in it. And it is not enough to believe in it. One must work at it.”
~Eleanor Roosevelt~
